✆ castiel's voicemail

[dirtytrenchcoat]

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[trigeminalheadache]

Sure, you're a person. You don't have to be human to be a person.

What do you mean?

[dirtytrenchcoat]

That's true.
I'm learning to be more and more of one every day.

More than I ever thought possible.

I'm referring to emotions. I'm not supposed to feel as deeply, as wholly as a human, and yet I'm more than able. Time spent on earth, away from heaven and its guiding force.

[trigeminalheadache]

Do you miss it? Heaven. Not being able to feel emotions like this.

[dirtytrenchcoat]

No.
I think being around humanity changed me, and I'm not sure I'd want to be any other way even if I had the opportunity.

It's not who I am anymore.

[trigeminalheadache]

It's very hard not to be affected by your environment. By the people you surround yourself with.

They tell me change is good, but somedays I'm not so sure.

[dirtytrenchcoat]

What makes you so uncertain?

[trigeminalheadache]

Because I think it's this place that's changing me.

[dirtytrenchcoat]

Would you say that you've been changed for better or worse?
This place can influence us, I'm not so sure it's capable of truly changing someone that doesn't want to otherwise be changed.

[trigeminalheadache]

For the better, maybe?
I know I'm more open-minded and adventurous now.
But I know others would say it's for the worse.

[dirtytrenchcoat]

If it's just a matter of opinion then your opinion should matter the most.

[trigeminalheadache]

It should. I'm trying to be better about focusing just on my opinion.

[dirtytrenchcoat]

Given that we have to be as in control of our autonomy as possible here you should be secure in the knowledge that your focus can be spread but your beliefs are resolute.